Boxed Mac & Cheese and Other Random Things That Made Me Ugly Cry This Week

Quarantine has been a great (stay with me) time for really going deep, learning new things about yourself, fully embracing the concept of a shower cocktail. It’s also been, for me, a time of feeling the feels deeper than I ever have before. Here’s a list of what’s getting my emotions rocking and rolling these days.

10. My Going Out Clothes

As I was tossing my flip flops into the closet the other night, my eyes landed upon my multi-color sequin disco jacket and I let out a little gasp. Was she lonely? Did she feel unloved? Would she and I ever dance (with others) again? I put her on over my pajamas, just to reassure her: we will survive.

9. Stevie Nicks Singing the Word “Snooooooow” in Landslide

Can you get through this without a combination of crying, chills, holding a hand to your heart? I. Cannot.

8. The Color Cerulean

Perks of parenting? The Box of 120 (!!!) Crayola crayons and rediscovering your childhood fave.

7. Bunny Rabbit

I was awkwardly jogging around my neighborhood (awkward because I run like a robot), when I saw a little bunny just sunning him/herself, munching on some grass. I do not live in an area with wild rabbits and it just melted me. Thumps has given me a reason to run. Beep boop.

6. Bagel

I miss New York and my Long Island family so much that when a friend gave me a homemade bagel, I actually cried. It happened to be delicious, so I cried again.

5. The “You’re All Caught Up” Feature on Instagram

Listen, Insta. You and I BOTH know we are spending too much time together. But this just feels a little aggressive. I had to turn my phone over,
to avoid the shaming you gave. That was good though, because by the time I got over it, there were new posts to look at!

4. Macaroni and Cheese- The Boxed Kind

There is something both so comforting and s0 sad about the little powder packet, the clumpy neon cheese trying its damndest not to mix with the milk or noodles. Memories… and current reality when I run out of fresh produce.

3. Watching My Toddler Hug Our Dog

These two have had a slow burn of love, especially now that Clover pulls Dublin’s ears less and has a food-throwing habit that means he always gets snacks. When she randomly walks over to him to give him an embrace, I forget every pea I’ve had to pull out from under the fridge and my heart explodes.

2. Palm Springs

This comedy movie about a time loop had me laughing, crying, laugh crying like a maniac in an emotional loop like I’ve never experienced before (except the time I was asked to leave a movie theater because I cried so hard at The Heat, the Melissa McCarthy/Sandra Bullock buddy comedy. Don’t ask).

1. When Quarantine is Over, Let’s….

This one gets me good. I think we’re all dreaming of this post-Covid world, and that little phrase touches me, inspires me and fills my hopeful heart. Yes. When this is over, we can. And we will.

Susan-Kate Heaney (Los Angeles, CA) @sue_kate Susan-Kate Heaney is an actor (Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, The Mindy Project, Masters of Sex), writer (multiple one-woman shows, webseries, movies) and new mom (Clover). She loves comedy and performs live often (improv, stand-up, sketch). She is the host of a podcast called "The Quirks" and spoiler alert... she has many of them. ​